X Factor's Jahmene Douglas Admits Mother's 'Screams Will Stick With Me Until The Day I Die'

Finalist opens about his past and says his mother is a 'saint'

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X Factor finalist Jahmene Douglas may be living the dream now, but for the super talented singer, his past was very different.

Opening up about the abuse his mother, his two brothers and sister suffered at the hands of his father to promote the Real Man campaign with Women’s Aid for Cosmopolitan magazine, Jahmene told Cosmopolitan.co.uk:

"The sad thing about an abusive childhood is that you cut it out. My memories come and go, some are good, but most are bad. The one thing that will stick with me until the day I die is my mother’s screams. Hearing her scream for her life but being paralysed with fear, unable to move one muscle.

"We were under such an evil lock down of control that you wouldn't dare move in case one action resulted in something much worse. Nightmares upon nightmares build up from nights of those screams.

"It's one of those things that can't be fully described to the extremity of what it exactly is... you have to feel it to know it and to know what needs to be changed to help others. Domestic violence is in my DNA, it's in who I am. I'd rather be beaten myself than ever hear those screams again."

Calling his mum a "saint" following the horrific experiences the family have gone through, Jahmene added: “My mother is a saint. She would go to hell and back to watch over her children to know that they are okay. I honestly believe I would not have survived to be here today if it was not for my mother. Now she is raising money and awareness for domestic violence refuges through Women's Aid who need a lot more support, funding and protection... I just want to help too ... [my mother is] an absolute source of unconditional love and never ending strength.”

Believing that the fear can be overcome, Jahmene continued: "The fear CAN leave you. I was living in fear for years after and it was just as bad as having him around. It flips your whole life upside down and steals your focus from life. I've been lucky to have grown from that stage now. The fear does leave but only if you help yourself.

"You have the choice to click self-destruct and live in depression or you can switch it around into rebuilding what was stolen from you. All it takes is time and enthusiasm.... Paint your negative into a positive picture.”

Jahmene and co have fun at Disneyland Paris!

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The X Factor finalists have fun at Disneyland (WENN)